i created this space in 2017, as a place for unjumbling the mind-jelly, inviting inner-to-outer-world word-shapes to appear.
since then, SumitaUnjumbled-space has become a way of observing, acknowledging and accepting multi-realities, and is about finding ways to express those things through unmasked performance of Beingness.
it is about allowing possibility for people to meet various co-existing parts of me – of varying energies, often contradicting yet all contributing, in a way which makes me me.
it is about turning up to a journey, as a person-on-a-planet, in whatever unformed / forming form that decides to try to Be.
https://sumitaunjumbled.com/things/(opens in a new tab)
Past Unjumblings… (typey blog-things)
(past-draft); Sea rolls down the body like unspoken ocean
….i didn’t remember writing this, but i found it in the drafts from earlier this month… some days ago, some weeks ago? time ago. past writing-therapy, from the…Keep reading
past-draft: overpushing, pushing over..
here is a thing from the drafts folder last week… since then, i had an indoorgoblin gig which positively immersed me. that morning i had a panic attack…Keep reading
OCD in Society conference (May 2021) – Transcript-text
[here is a thing i did earlier this year] [the conference was online this year. i met some nice people and had some good conversations and laughed about…Keep reading
re-remembering the happenings..
[writing-therapy from the inner-things, typed up yesterday or this-today in some early earlier hours] There’s always so many swirls upon swirls upon swirls all forming their own versions,…Keep reading
it’s both parts of the hourglass at the same time.
it’s both parts of the hourglass at the same time. trickling lightdust darkdust timedust moving half past, barely touching, but touching.the connections are electric!they highlight up the dark.and…Keep reading
my mind’s too soup to look at it properly
write, because how else to untangle yourself out of all of this porridgei just want even just a few hours of brain-peace. tired of tired of tired of…Keep reading
February noteling-notethings, from the February ghost-things things-that-i-wrote-things:i used a pan yesterday for the first time since the pan incident. actually, i used a pot instead, pretending that it’s…Keep reading
a thing from LAST APRIL
oh – STRANGE – I just found this draft-post from last year (April, I think). maybe i posted it already? maybe i should check? surely i’d remember…… nope,…Keep reading
sometimes, my legs become dolphins
[writingtherapy from the things]sometimes, my legs become dolphins in the batheach big leg, one big-leg dolphinand not just, me imagining that my legs are dolphins (although, then that…Keep reading
each misplacement is, from somewhere, intentional
[writingtherapy, from the innerghostling-ghosthings of inner-ghost me] the escape button has escapedand I have not, yetthe jumblings unjumbling yet words are like meltymarshmallow pillowstuffing that carry so many…Keep reading
there’s too much to backtrack
(writing-therapy from the innerthings of me)you know that thing when someone speaks so well about something that it resonates through the unimultiverse and your entire bodymask-being, and you…Keep reading
‘It’s only the ever-rolling tide… Roll in, roll out. Bury.’
[a writey thing from many months ago] Rejection is refreshing an inbox seeking rejection, expecting rejection, preparing for the essence of rejection, yet being unable to resist, unable…Keep reading
March-2020 (a blog-beginning from months-ago March)
blog-attempt from months-ago March, from the unfinished unposted re-visitable realms: ‘I’m strong and fragile at the same time which is weird. I guess it’s like a teacup. It…Keep reading
Sept-2019 lost blog: notelings left on note-things
HELLO. Enter THE TIME-MACHINE, yet again. (i always was often-delayed with things on here but this time there was a bigger gap between writing on here because, Reasons……Keep reading
10, or 12, or 20… 100, 10, 1, O.
The numbers are confusing me. I keep having to google the word decade. I get it confused with the word ‘dozen’ and don’t know whether it means ’12…Keep reading
busying the non-escape
#writingtherapy Is there a feeling-name for that constant urge to run away from your own self? Every few minutes it’s like I want to just, drop everything and…Keep reading
arrive with me; arrive, and let us be yoghurts on the floor.
More writing-therapy from the ghosts of me – because I have to, because I want to, because I don’t know else how To.I’ve been well the last few…Keep reading
a traveler in the realms of me
I was on the tube and there was no one else on it and I thought I was dead and I was having a lovely time, yes I…Keep reading
follow your alignment
Find your alignmentSummon your alignmentDream your alignmentFollow your alignmentThe pressures of interpretation aren’t always nutritionalThe energy-umbions feed from the oomblets of surroundednessFloating groundednessFolded and carriedWounded, healedundug, unburiedOpened and…Keep reading
To do, to do, to do………
HELLO. Here I am. (“Here I am! Where’s The Spill?!” exclaims the brain-echolalia, covering the place in imaginary paper towels). Did you ever watch ‘Get Your Own Back’…Keep reading
With this I must listen; From this I must Be.
The sun streams down onto the duvet, in a little puddle of warm glow – like it does when you’re in the sea, glowing on little underwater sand-islands…Keep reading
‘I Wish You Knew’ with Pablo – share your stories!
Hello!As you may have seen (as I am a few days late with typing this up), the social media team of the show Pablo have been encouraging people…Keep reading
The ground doesn’t move under my feet…but it does.
THIS HAS BEEN IN MY DRAFTS FOR AGES here’s a thing from about a month or more ago! (It might have been from even before that weird heatwave…Keep reading
Yellow Shoes 💛
I would love these shoes! Someone find me these shoes (or tell these shoes to find me) (The animations are from Pablo – ‘Pick Us, Pablo’, episode written…Keep reading
the panic-boats arrive in my sleep
write, she saidbecause something happens and words appearwrite, when you don’t know how to talkwhen you don’t know what to talkwrite, when you don’t know whywhen it doesn’t…Keep reading
Today was one of those days where you reach the end, get ready for bed (one of those anomaly days where you actually get ready for bed, instead…Keep reading
June Jumbles (Part Two)
This is my third or fourth attempt coming back to this Draft but I’m determined to get it posted before June ends! Hello!I was supposed to write this…Keep reading
May Mumble-Rambles (Part 1)
Hello Hello! May mumble-ramble-updates! I know it’s June now but you know I’m always playing catch up with myself. The last two weeks seem like months ago! I…Keep reading
Writing to myself which is now to everyone else, because for some reason I wouldn’t have done it otherwise (Badly-written rambly stuff to make myself write) Things I…Keep reading
i am lucky. i am unfinished.
I am overwhelmed by excruciating guilt of over-luck, of over-opportunity, undeserving of all I receive, undeserving to complain. I want to DO SOMETHING. I want to expel all…Keep reading
April April April, nearly May
April April April, nearly May, may it be May yet?Well that was April – and yes fine I did quietly pretend that it wasn’t April anymore for about…Keep reading
April is very-fast approaching, and for some autistic people this means being trapped between wanting to hide from the internet yet wanting to participate at the same time,…Keep reading
Update (Part 3)
I changed my mind again (I told you – it’s the toast-and-butter thing! The toast can’t stick to the butter when the toast is on the floor! wait……Keep reading
Update (Part 2)
I’d planned for this post to be December-January, but then I decided I wanted a separate New Year’s Eve one, so here are some end-of-November-and-December photos because we…Keep reading
Update (Part 1)
*+* SPACEBOAT ARRIVAL, PRESENT-SELF-VERSION DOWLOADED, TELEPORTATION COMPLETE *+* – oh, I just misread the word ‘complete’ as ‘OMLETTE’ and now I’m imagining teleporting omlettes appearing and disappearing in…Keep reading
Porridge, Refocus, Restart again.
Today is a day is a day is a day. It’s like I’m going round in circles, large slow-fast misshapen squashed circles, and then when I realise and…Keep reading
Knead the Needs and Help Them Rise
‘Knead the knead the knead the – wait, I’ve been kneading this breaddough for an eternity – where are the needs? I know they’re in there somewhere but…Keep reading
This is a past-unjumbling from November… Last month I ended up in a shop and there was a pile of soft-toy black cats ; I put my hand in…Keep reading
MirrorSelves, Be True
The Goblin’s questiony quietly-assured voice appears through softened soundwaves, a meditative surround-soundtrack from swirly skies: ‘Which is the mirror and which is the self? Merge, and separate, separate…Keep reading
Norm-Gnome: Settled Unsettled
The mythological legend of ‘The Norm’… the Norm-Gnome guards such treasures carefully, burying riddle-seeds to grow and flourish and die and rain more riddle-seeds upon recycled ground to…Keep reading
This is the excerpt for your very first post.Keep reading
…i think this thing means if you put your email address here, it might tell you when i post an unjumbling… maybe…
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About… (some things)
who am i (i still don’t really know)
(Sumita Majumdar) / (Sumita Nandy Majumdar) / (what even is my name and why can’t i choose one – it was so much easier when i just used to say i was Sumita) –
Sumita (she/they) is an arts-expresser / performer-ish person (SumitaUnjumbled / IndoorGoblin), songwriter, autistic researcher (MSc Creative Arts & Mental Health graduate – Queen Mary University of London), and co-writer / voice actor of CBeebies’ show ‘Pablo’ (Paper Owl Films) (about an autistic child who uses an inner art-world to process and play).
Sumita’s work includes writing, making soundtracks, being involved in community arts projects, and being an observey collaborator / creative consultant.
Research interests / presentation topics etc. include: imagination tools for mental wellness, inner-worlds, performance of selves, autistic imagination, autism & psychosis, autism & OCD, live art, normodivergentness, normorealities, mixed identity things, inner-mind multiplicity, songwriting therapy, arts therapies…
[i am still editing this – the above was a link that i removed / hadn’t re-added – i’m not just telling you to read more. if you do want to read more, though, you could read ‘Shouting At Leaves’ by Jennifer Msumba, or something moominy by Tove Jansson, or ‘Nobody Nowhere’ by Donna Williams (Polly Samuel)… also, go watch ‘The Reason I Jump‘]
(by the way, that photo of me on the grass was taken by The Claires, in Holywood)